desired dreams
Wednesday, February 26, 2003
his favorite composer is Brucker. esp sym number 7.
he works for robinson's may
he's in a brass quintet, and his local church orchestra.
he goes to CSULB.
he's friends w/ Chris Folsom... son of Jerry Folsom.
drives a black buick...
*runs away*
Sunday, February 23, 2003
i went to the LA Phil. It was great.
- the Planets was awesome.
- underground hall w/ bar and bathroom is cool and unique.
- backstage... OMG. SO COOL. (i am a pampered horn player)
- Meeting Jerry Folsom SUPAH COOL. (mark worships him... bwahaha)
- Sabrina (mark's friend) VERY COOL. I felt comfortable around her right off the bat.
- Mark/Dave's house = *oogle oogle drool*
Tonight: jocy is super happy.
on top of that...
- i got to ride the truck w/ Mark for a while.
- i went to Whittier! bwahahaha.
- Mark sat on my bed. XD```
okay. time for bed. XD
btw. i saw the Crow. good movie. XD
Saturday, February 22, 2003
life has been busy. very busy. my bed is full of crap... and i need to clean up after myself. haven't done that yet.
so much shit has been going around. its not even funny.
family problems
friendship problems
roommate problems
on top of that-
education
rehersal time
homework time
staying alive
and hopefully getting a job.
busy busy busy.
i'd have to say tho. family problems is a big issue. stuff has been happening... i don't know what to say or what i think of it. its crazy mad. yah.
hopefully toorrow will turn out well. get to go to an art museum... and hopefully w/ mark, dave and marks friend. so. it'll be good. yah. lets hope?
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
B00-FUCKIDY-H00.
theres too much goddamned bloody drama.
and thank god i've opted to step aside and live in my own world.
i don't care any more thank you.
call me selfish what you will.
call me stupid.
call me what you wish.
i'm happy with myself, my life and decisions.
so what does it matter to you?
Wednesday, February 12, 2003
My English Concept Paper...:
Music has always been a part of human culture back to the earliest records; music has always existed in some part of society as perhaps a religious chant, or a good old folk song. Music is a part of human nature and has been proven to be a beneficial asset for all occasions. The addiction for music has been imposed to produce a positive and negative aspect depending on the kind of addiction. Positively, musical addiction maybe able to stimulate the brain and produces an intelligent connection between mind and body. Negatively, music can be abused as a media form and used as propaganda and shaping the music culture that society lives in. Such an addiction is the constant need for melodic sounds to correlate with physical and mental emotions of an individual.
Emotions is expressed in music, it is a form of art. All art is created with emotions, no matter how much or how little emotion is put into the work. Music composers have been noted that their works are based off of their emotions, or mental disabilities that stimulate wild creativity and fluctuating emotions. For example, Gershwin was seen in his youth as a troublemaker and a rebel, however he becomes a wonderful composer. However, he is a wonderful composer because he suffered from attention deficit disorder, which means that during those short attention spans there must a change in emotions during his shifts of attention. The emotions expressed by composers in their music compositions effects the response of the listener, which determines their actions, behavior and feelings during the occurrence of listening to music. Even in modern music that may or may not contain lyrics evokes the composer’s feelings towards a certain issue, or an aspect of life. Another example is rapper Eminem and his song “Cleanin’ out my Closet” which is about his mother. His feelings of hatred of his mother stimulates in the mind pity and sorrow for him. In addition it becomes a depressing song in thought that the relationship between mother and son has deteriorated, and yet full of anger in the loss of respect between that relationship. In addition, interpretation of music may also affect how the listener reacts and feels to a certain composed piece. It is important to remember that the emotions placed into a musical composition will always have an emotional response depending on the type of music heard.
Compositions that include a fast beat, or tempo in a musical piece tends to stimulate the mind up to an emotional state of excitement. For example, the electronic music genre (which includes: Dance, Hard Dance, Trance, Techno, House, etc) usually follows a pattern that includes a fast tempo starting from 140 beats per a minute and on (considering that 60 beats per a minute is equivalent to the pace of the second hand of a clock) which induces the listener to get up and move. Electronic “music uses high notes and general upward movement for the expression of tense or energetic states” at part of that genre. During a electronic music type composition, there will be a consistency of fast beats, however even through out the entire piece there will be moments where the music will flow at a fast pace, climax and fall back down again, or go a completely different direction. Electronic music is not the only genre that contains elements of excitement. It can also be found in many other music genres, including classical music. For example, the composition, “Flight of the Bumble Bee” by Rimskij-Korsakov also features fast paced notes at the speed of 200 beats per a minute. The piece reenacts the composer’s image of a flying bumble bee, buzzing and flying very fast, and with his composition paints out a creative illusionary picture of a flying bee. However, fast tempo music does not include music played audibly loud. Instead, the manipulation of dynamics (volume) in music compositions dramatizes the piece to create the flow of fast and exciting music. At times, people may be addicted to this type of music and build up an adrenaline rush. This technique of music can be used in situations that create adrenaline rushes, and the need for excitement. Upbeat and fast tempo music can been used to encourage stimulation physically and mentally. For example, such music can be used in action movies to dramatize the event, or it can be used while exercising to encourage movement. When fast paced music is composed, there is typically a climatic point, “and the tension is released when the tune comes back ‘down’ again to a rest position,” which indicates a possible beginning or finale written in a slow tempo fashion.
In opposition to fast upbeat music, slow tempo music has a different effect on people. The addiction to slow tempo music usually indicates a release of tension, a sign of depression, or to bring the listener into a state of tranquility. The importance of slow music usually relates to the physical and mental release of tension and stress (which usually occurs after an important event), searching for the perfect moment of peace and sign of resolution. For example, the composer Shostakovich is famous for his war symphonies; it follows a repetitive pattern of slow music to extravagant fast music and then resolves back to slow music. This repetitive pattern follows the visions Shostakovich had of Soviet wars: the preparation for the war, the actual war, and then the resolution. “Slow tunes [have] more leisurely connotations,” such as ballads, lullabies, natural electronic music, it serves as a relaxing resolution, it can become an addiction shared between lovers, and finding a sense of peace. Many people who are disturbed emotionally may become addicted to slower type music in order channel their troubled emotions and release the tension held within them selves. Another example of slow tempo music is rock and blues, it is a genre that takes advantage of a slower paced melodies to convey emotions of peacefulness, romance, and sorrow. Ballads that are written about depression and troubles may become and addiction to those who suffer from the same conditions. Sometimes the dynamics of slow music is associated with softness which implies that the song is gentle. However, this is inaccurate in terms of using soft dynamics to convey such emotions; an example of this would be Tchaikovsky’s “Dance of the Sugar Plum Faeries.” The actual song is set at a slow dance tempo used for ballet dancers; however, the balance in dynamics between different instruments creates opposing emotional feelings in the composition. The use of dramatized bass beats is contrasting to the dainty melodies of woodwind instruments. The actual piece is visually like a bear delicately dancing a cross the stage versus graceful deer prancing in the opposite direction. The addiction to slow music is not necessarily used just for an antidote to stress and tension relief, but it can also become an escape from reality.
Escaping from reality can be influenced greatly by musical addiction; it becomes an indication of unnatural human behavior. For example, suffering from depression can lead to an escape from reality, wanting to be positioned in a different situation. Even dreaming (or daydreaming) can be considered an escape from reality, it is not necessarily a negative aspect of human behavior, but maybe related to musical addiction. One composition that displays an escape from reality is Tchaikovsky’s “Sixth Symphony”, which is also known as his suicide symphony. As a composer, Tchaikovsky suffered from depression, mainly suffering his secret of being a closeted homosexual. The result is evident that “music is not a direction communication of the composer’s feelings to his audience, but rather a communication about how he makes sense of his feelings, gives them structure, transforms them from raw emotions into art.” In Tchaikovsky’s case, his emotions of being a closeted homosexual and maintaining his socially elite status is expressed through his compositions, it becomes an escape from reality. Any natural human disorders tend to correlate with music as an escape from reality, classical symphonies usually tell a story written by the composer thoughts and feelings. Sometimes, music written and heard is not necessarily a negative escape from reality but rather a “temporary retreat which promotes a re-ordering process win the mind, and thus aids our adaptation o the external world rather tan providing an escape from it.”
Many times, composed music includes a great amount of dramatized music and overly exaggerates and contrasts melodic sounds. Composers take advantage of being able to exaggerate tunes in order to push their music to the limits that is far from reach in reality. Sometimes dramatized music may include patriotic music, or even music as propaganda. Sometimes the composed piece itself is not dramatized, but the reactions of listeners that shape the way such a piece is viewed. Dramatized music is a combination of all musical elements; it has the qualities to be recognized as a monumental piece because of its melodic allure or other form of attraction. For example, John Williams composed theme song, “Shindlers List”, those who have never heard of this piece, or have ever seen the movie would consider this song as depressing, sorrowful and painful. However, those who have seen the movie, or know of it will automatically associate their emotions and thoughts to the song. If a person has seen the movie, then they would know that the theme song of the movie relates to the Holocaust, and Jewish people. The emotions felt are automatically depressing because it correlates to the movie and the expected emotions the composer wants people to feel. There are many elements that could define dramatic music; it may include music such as national anthems to dramatize the importance of unity within a nation. It might even them a certain theme song, or a thirty second commercial slogan with a distinct tune, or possibly war music. One of the many types of music that is greatly dramatized is classical war music. Composers such as Shostakovich and Holst display fine examples of war related music. Gustav Holst is most famous for his composition of “The Planets” which includes his interpretation of all the planets (except for Pluto because the planet was discovered after the piece had been published). The most famous movement of “The Planets” is most likely “Mars: The Bringer of War”, it has been used as background music for all types of media, and is most famous for its distinct and odd tempo. The use of dynamically loud and bold brass instruments intertwining with the heavy and consistent beat of drums to exaggerate a fanfare of anger and war. The term dramatized is very broad in terms of music; it can be applied to most works that are successful through the clever use of music theory and become a significant piece of melody in history. In addition, sometimes the success in the dramatic effects of a piece is done through the musicians itself, as a musician would put in their own emotions and efforts in producing a beautiful sound.
Other forms of musical addiction include music used to shape society. Such music may include popular pop music, rap, alternative, rock and roll, and any other current lyrical music, not only is it addicting to most of society and especially the youth, it is also a transmitter of culture into society. For example, popular music sung by individuals or bands may present their compositions through music videos. In a music video, viewers and visualize the assumed behavior, actions and lifestyles of the singer/band, it encourages society to pick upon what they favor and follow unconsciously in the footsteps of media. Such a link between modern culture and music may become an addiction and is especially vulnerable to the youth because there is no other leading light to help form the way society is brought up. Music is used unconsciously in everything, especially relating to media, in movies, television, the radio; it shapes the materialistic culture of society.
The need for music is always important, knowing that music has always been a part of human culture, dating as far back as 1000ACE with the birth of Gregorian Chant (used religiously). Yet, musical addiction displays elements of needing music to fulfill a certain desire or need that can only be satisfied through music. It can be the stimulator of emotional excitement and adrenaline, as well has have a calming and resolving type of effect. It can become addicting if suffering from depression or mental illness, it can be the center of escaped reality and there for pure pleasure. There are many different forms of addiction to music, each having its own positive and negative aspects. However, many times music may become an unconscious addiction because of have developed into human society as an important tool of everyday life.
todays hornlist article:
PRESIDENT ANNOUNCES PLAN FOR NOTE CUT INITIATIVE
Crawford, TX, January 28 (AP)â?" In an effort to reach out to
Constituencies outside his traditional power base, President George W.
Bush today announced a new "note cut" initiative, intended to appeal to
classical musicians.
Speaking from his ranch in Crawford, Texas, the President prefaced his
remarks with some general observations. "Music is a good thing. I like
music because I like good things, and music is good for America. It's
fundamentalistic to the American spirit. Classically-orientated
musicians -- the ones that play in orchestras, in the churches of this
great country of ours, in polka bands, and on the telephone when you're
put on hold while calling any one of our Fortune 500 companies -- are
especially important, because they play a whole lot of notes. And these
are good, American notes, that haven't been genetically altered, which
Laura and I prize very highly. As I like to say, what you don't know you
have can't hurt you if you're not there."
The President went on to explain the reasons for his new initiative.
"For too long these good musical Americans have been playing lots and
lots of notes, and haven't been getting anything in return. These here
notes belong to the American people, and it's time to give some of them
back."
The administration's plan calls for a one-time refund of 3,000 notes to
tax-paying and note-playing American classical musicians. Chamber
musicians who play sonatas together in long-standing legal or
church-sanctioned relationships are entitled to a refund of 6,000 notes.
String quartets will receive a one-time refund of 10,000 notes, as
follows: 5,000 for first violinists, 3,000 for second violinists, 1,500
for cellists, and only 500 for violists. Already this arrangement has
generated considerable controversy, since it clearly favors the upper
instruments. Pianists are entitled to a 15,000-note refund, because in
the words of the President, "they play lots and lots and lots of notes.
Their fingers must be really well-oiled. Those digits can really add up,
musicologistically speaking."
Back in Washington, Democrats are already gearing up for a fight. They
point to the plan's inequitable distribution of notes. Citing the latest
figures from the music division of the General Accounting Office, they
also claim that Bush's initiative is musically irresponsible. Noting
recent reports indicating the President's tax refund, in conjunction
with the sliding economy, has now effectively erased any budget surplus,
they find parallels in Bush's note-cut initiative. They warn ominously
that his plan threatens the all-important Musical Security Hemi-, Demi,
and Semi-Quaver Reserve.
On Friday, Representative Richard A. Gephardt painted a grim picture of
what, in Democrats' eyes, the future holds. "Giving musicians notes back
doesn't mean they're going to use them wisely, and it won't help the
nation's musical health. We'd run the very real risk of running out of
notes."
"Imagine," Gephardt continued, "a Brahms symphony petering out in
performance for a lack of notes. First thing you know, musicians will be
leaving out all the fast movements because they don't have enough notes
to get through them. Mendelssohn will suffer the most, especially the
last movement of the octet."
Apprised of Gephardt's remarks on the way to a pig roast at his ranch,
President Bush responded, "Nope. Not gonna happen. I intend to be the
defense, education, and fast-movement president. If Congress minds its
musical matters, we'll have enough left for Brahms and the Mendelssohn
Octagon, too."
Monday, February 10, 2003
a ponderous thought today. I think i know what i want to do with my future. I want to be an acoustical architect. those kind of ppl really do exsist. theres also acoustical egineers... but thats another story. maybe you have to be both to be good at it? but... i think i want to do that. for sure.. okay. wish me luck. I'm going to have my english midterm. joy. -_-;;;;
http://www.despub.com/L&S11.htm
that website makes me SICK. SICK SICK SICK.
UNDERBITES make brass playing very difficult if not impossible, because the jaw in this position constantly directs the air upward and away from the lower lip. This reduces full resonance of the sound which requires both lips to function. Potential players with underbites should be steered to other instrument families, but if brass is desired, tuba is the best option because of the amount of opening the mouth has for playing tuba. Yet, the lower register of the tuba will always be poor.
That ladies and gents is FUCKING bullshit... and I'm going to prove them wrong. So what If i can only hit a high #F. I'll make it up there soon enough and prove them wrong. I'm determined to play... and i'll make it. If not i'll be one hell-of-a low range player. bwahahaha. bleh.
anyway. i talked to Angie today. she's got a lotta friend drama. that sux0rs. -_-;; i wish i could help. but i'm not quite sure how i'd be able to help and all. but. i talked to her about my dream that i had the other day... about Dave. she thinks that I subconsciencely like Dave... w/o knowing. maybe she's right? cuz lately all i've been doin is thinkin about Dave. Dave. Dave. and more Dave.
Dave would be sexy if he dressed like Nicholas Cage. or at least classy.
If Dave dressed like James Bond... damn. XD
James Bond is sexy. the end. no questions asked.
i went to the Crown City Brass Quintet concert. It was good. it was very home friendly, they talked and had ppl ask questions and stuff. it was enjoyable. I enjoyed it. there were quite a few good laughs here and there. One of my fav peices was written by a person in name, but really written by his grandfather. the basis of the song was based on an old ragtime song... and what his grandfather thought it sounded like on a crappy ass record player. The actual peice was FUNNY AS HELL. there'd be funny noises here and there... and then for a while it was the same song in two different keys. that was crazy. XD I talked to the horn player. She was cool. Its nice to get to meet people... it makes you feel at home. It was enjoyable. they played mozarts Twinkle Twinkle Little Star song + variations. I liked the one that was done in a minor key. that was awesome. n e way.
i'd better get going... class at 8 am. joy. -_-;;
at least i'll get to see Dave tomorrow. *overjoyed* Dave is sexy. (Mark is too... bwahahahahaha).
Thursday, February 06, 2003
[edit 5:46 pm] This post is alllllllllllllllllllllll about Dave
i had a dream last night. I'm lost and confused now. i don't know what to think. yes this has to relate to the men that she likes. yet again. Mark and Dave. Dave and Mark... why? i don't understand. Damn men... so appealing.
so my dream:
i was at school, getting out of class in the late afternoon. perhaps around 5pm? 6pm? closer to six. like yesterday (see below on "yesterday"). dave and i are walking out of class together and as we exit the building (on campus, i don't know which building or anything) i mentioned to Dave that I liked his brother. Dave said, "I know you do..." as i being to blank out... surprized he figured out that i liked his brother... and then he continued, "...but... i'm interested in you..."
a moment of silence
"Am I hearing this right?" i said.
"Yeah. I'm interested in you"
"..."
then i turned around, flattered and all. and hugged him. we embraced and held that moment for a while. it was a while... before i broke up the embracement and i had to leave... to an appointment or something. perhaps english class? i dont know... i only smiled at him... and made my way... knowing that i'd come back to him soon enough again...
and thats when i woke up.
oddly enough. i've had enough reoccurences yesterday to remind me all day about Dave. just Dave. not his brother. just him.
I'm getting better.. i feel better. better then monday. monday was sickening. i felt aweful. tuesday i felt worse. yesterday was the peak... in the morning and at night. but during music classes i felt great.
so. after band class... on the way to the library. i got a chance to talk to Dave. we walked out of the music building, talking about things... brass ensamble, brass ensamble thing on sunday (that he can't go to... curse you!), then about his senior seminar...
will edit later. gonna eat. =D
[edit 4:59 pm]
so after band class Dave and I were talking, and we were walking towards the parking lot and i stopped. i asked him if he'd walk w/ me to the library... and he did. (what a sweetie... haha). So on the way to the library, we talked about his classes, CS major and all... it was nice talkin to him. funny. cuz i asked him, "Whats your favorite color?"
"my favorite color? hmmm..."
"green i guess..."
"not that color green right?" *jocy points to his green shirt. it was GREEN. UGLY GREEN.
"oh no no, this was like an extra minute Dave needs a shirt now shirt..."
"so maybe dark green?"
"well... why do you ask? i like other colors... red, blue... whatever i like..."
"what about your brothers fav color?"
"well i dont know... its his personal preference.."
"geez..."
"you're not going to perform some sort of scary ritual are you?"
"no Dave i'm not... just plotting"
"oh... *blink blink*"
"i gotta go to class"
"Oh! now you tell me... if not i wouldn't have babbled..."
and the convo goes on... i like babbling. i like when ppl babble. its funny.
later in the evening tho... i ended up watching Face/Off. thats when it hit me. DAMN. Dave looks like Nicholas Cage. Same type of body frame... scruffy gruffy chin... and appealing eyes. too bad Dave doesn't dress like him too... or else... i'd have to say that Dave would be sexy. bwahahaha. any guy who would dress like that would be SEXY. yah yah. me and my weird quirks. any way. if its something that really appeals to me about Dave... is his grin. when he knows he's victorious... and that he's been playing a good spy (incident at Disneyland... see post 2/3/03 on disneyland, random incident @ Big Thunder Mtn)... he teases and GRINS. it makes me want to smile in a weird way. i find it appealing. i really do. honestly... when Dave and Mark were both teasin... i thought it was attractive. not cuz of the fact that i thought this other guy was cute... but the fact that they were teasing. i don't really know how to describe it... it just made me feel something that i usually don't feel. i donno. i'm thinking of way to many things... but. i should start my plotting tonight sometime. and do my homework... okay. i'm going to go online browsing. >:D
Tuesday, February 04, 2003
it's not gonna stop. this feeling keeps on going. over the weekend i was on such a happy high, i was happy. nothing could stop me from being happy. the weekend was so great. my hopes were brought up high yet again...
and then all of a sudden it hits again. i get sick on monday... it's only tuesday. how painful. and... when you've become so happy over someone... and just feel as if you've lost them all over again. you get depressed. well. i do.
i emailed him... will he email me again? i emailed him sunday night... it's been over a whole day. am i being impatient? or are my thoughts justified? i want to talk to him... i miss him all over again. damn it all.
i can't talk. my throat hurts.
i want to talk to him. i want to be with him... just spend time getting to know him. i just want to spoil him... just because. i enjoy spoiling friends.
i was so happy... and now i'm down below. i can't stop thinking about him. this is hurting my mind.
i miss Sig too. i haven't seen him in so long. the damned bastard. he promised me he'd visit... it hasn't happened yet.
i've got this damned feeling inside of me, hating myself for who i am. wanting to be everything to everyone. i want to be everything for everyone. i don't want anyone to be alone. i don't want to be alone. that's what i'm afraid of. being the only one, alone.
i've got issues. major issues. why is my heart set out on certain people? people that i know arn't for me. yet. i idolize these people. i worship them. i love them. all the men i love... are people i know i can't have. just because it was made to be that way, for me to suffer.
i'm pitying myself.
why. i don't understand. why can't there be something out there for me? sometimes i wish... that my dreams really did come true. that life was easier for me. but its not... i keep on desiring my dreams, knowing how much they'll never come true. i just keep on desiring... keep on beggin, asking, pleading, getting on to my knees and praying.
when will i stop dreaming?
Monday, February 03, 2003
I've fallen in love w/ Saint Saens. bwahaha. *listens to the eroticly suggested type song* XD
I've been reading up on books about classical music... well. not really "classical" but on composers. I've been reading up on Gustav Holst. He's a really interesting person. What's really funny... is i like his military suites. Then... i read about him some more and read that him and Vaughan Williams were really good friends... which i find funny cuz i like both their suites. yeah. i'm an uber dork. Okay... i think its time for a trip to the library again. Going to check out their cd collection. XD Borrow a few cds i guess. yeah.
Sunday, February 02, 2003
gee. i haven't really updated in a while. not since last month.
happy chinese new year to all those azn ppl out there. year of the sheeeeeeeeeeeeep. yeps. wait and see one day they'll come out w/ chinese new year peeps... shaped in whatever animal of the year is. sheep shaped peeps.... fluffy. marshmellow... mellow... mellow...
so yesterday i went to disneyland... it was fun. i got to see someone special. special to me. it made me happy and believe in hope again. i sound so lame. so. i'll just do a summary of my day yesterday... and elaborate on it a bit.
6:45 am - got up and showered
7:30 am - preped up last minute stuff
7:45 am - walked over to the music building. saw 10billion boy scouts and a random commcerial or lame ass movie shooting. it was weeeeeeeeird. i walked right through the set... they hadn't started shooting yet.... but all the stuff was there. props and all. it was weird. one of the props had a sign that said, "Dancing is illegal" or something like that and it had a pic of that evil no red sign w/ a disco person on it. it was funny. so i walked over to building 24... chilled till Buddy showed up and started packing into the uhall truck.
8:20 am - packed into the truck and headed into the bus, then took the bus to disneyland. between that time i talked to a guy name danny. he's from bakersfield. he's nice. lives in the dorms too.
8:45ish - got to disnelyand... and slowly made way to the front gate... just waited for Buddy to get out and get tix from him and ride the tram to the front gate. waited for a while... and then went into the park at 9:10ish.
9:10ish - go into the park... slowly head towards toon town. we rode the following rides between 9:10 - 10am:
- tea cups
- gadget rollercoster
- rogers rabbit crazy ride thing.
10 am - met up w/ band crew... saw david. talked w/ david. david is a mean mean mean man. not mean in a mean way. but mean in a "hahahaha i'm a cunning suave man who is very tricky about my words and will tease you all in good fun" kind of way. i said i felt short... and he was like... of course you are. ><;;;; damn white boy being so tall. oh well.
10:15ish - went over to the back... preped up, changed clothes, took random pic, warmed up, etc etc etc
12:15ish - headed over to play @ carnation plaza
12:30 played @ carnation plaza
1:30ish came back, put everything away... found out dave was staying out later and gave him my number.
2 pm - ate lunch, dave calls and says, "You ate w/o me? T_T;;;; fine me and mark are going to eat first" (jocy's ears perk up, "Huh what? Mark is here? *excited*") then got fast pass tix to splash mtn, and pirates of the carrabian... rode pirates... then wandered to the tiki room.
3pm - dave calls again, we meet up and go to the tiki room.
and in between all that time... we rode a billion rides.
7:30 pm dave and mark left. T_T;;; poops
7:30 - 9:30 we rode space mtn, star tours and other things, then went to pick up my purdy red parasol... i bought a villians shot glass... and more shopping. shopping till 10.
10 - 11:30 waited around for everyone else b/c we were tired to go anywhere.
11:20 we met w/ everyone and then went to the bus. bus wasnt there. ><;;
12:00am bus finally came
12:30 got home, helped unload stuff.. got a ride back to the dorms.
1am finally home.
random highlights of the day:
Big Thunder Mtn: this girl and i saw a cute guy... and she wanted to get closer to him... and i was like whatever. she told dave mark and dan to go up ahead... and dave figured it out, "Oh... you like that guy huh? you just dig those types of guys dontcha?" and it was frustrating... giving us weird looks. i liked that guys sweater... i thought it was purdy. but i brushed it off my shoulder. makes me wonder if mark knows if i like him. o_O;; oh well. but damn... those looks those two were giving me... made me want to just grin and smile... i donno why. it just did.
Tiki Room: mark doing those random umph-suhhh beats w/ the tiki music... and dave, "Damn those birds are HOT" (*laughs on her ass*). and mark curled up in a fetus position attempting to sleep in the back row... what a dork... XD
Splash Mtn: I had an extra fast pass tix that was ripped... but i told that either dave or mark should try it... cuz... there wasnt a lil note on the back that said, "Ripped tix are invalid" or anything like that. So i gave it to Mark... and dave was left out. =\ Mark didn't want to go... but i convinced him that he wasnt going to get wet. ^^;; so mark decided to go. while waiting in the fast pass line i turned and saw Daves head bobbin up and down, all suave like. and he wandered slowly up to where we were. apparently someone gave him a "single rider pass" tix which bumps you up to the front of the line. so it was the 5 of us... we went on. (Dave is james bond btw. bwahahaha). we rode the ride... dan and mark got the most wet... XD *can't stop laughing*. but then dave lost his cell phone... *twiches* so we waited... dave and mark looked up the log pic, found the log... and almost lost hope... but then found it. XD so. pure pure pure luck. dave is a lucky charm.
time in between bathrooms... adventure land: i got to talk to mark. just the two of us. even if it was for only 5 mintues. it made me feel happy. i asked him about his birthday present... and he was like, "Oh yeah, omg. thank you so much. its beautiful. my mom wanted to take it away from me.... but i told her it was for me" wow. that made me feel happy. i told him how i felt about being a poor college student and how i enjoy making presents any way to show my sign of caring. it was a good feeling. he asked me what it was made out of and i told him, and the number of hours i spent on it. and then we ended up talking about other things, mainly about music. how i missed him in band. =\ that he should come visit and play. i found out he likes the composer Bruckner. so... i'm going to listen up on that and see if i like it. hahahaha. any way... even if it was only 5 mintues. it was still magical.
tomorrowland store: jocy talks about villians shot glasses... and mark goes, 'since when you do you keep up with disneyland shot glasses? your underage to drink', jocy just giggles and smiles innocently.
things bought @ dland - a red parasol, a maleficient villians shot glass, salt water taffy.
i havent had this much fun in quite a while. i feel really comfortable in band... even if i don't know the ppl too well. we just click. go fig.
any way... that was my day @ disneyland. i love band. *happy* i hope that i can establish a stronger friendship b/twn mark and dave tho. like in general. cuz i love them both.... even tho they're older then me and can drink.
