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Sunday, March 31, 2002
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Saturday, March 30, 2002
It's been such a busy week...
I got a cell phone last weekend - it was nice having it. people can leave me msgs! i love thing thing.
Me and my friends went to jtown yesterday it was nice.... i bought the new e-rotic album... and the rest of the gunsmith cats manga. its over. *sobs* the manga is finally over. *sobs more* why!? why did it have to end.. no more Rally, Minnie-May... Misty and Becky... and and.. *sobs*
on top of that... i saw Jahi and Dawn! =O
talk about pure randomness. haha they appeared out of nowhere!
we talked - it was good seeing them! jocy is happy.
then my friends and i went home... and went to kevins house... and stuff. yeah. haha.
i'm lazy - i dont wanna blog. its spring break! i gotta clean up my room a little and start making my prom dress (my cosplay outfit...) wahahaha. i'm wearing my outfit to prom. i think was thinking of making a Salt outfit from tiny snow fairy sugar sometime soon... hehehe. that'd be cool. ^-^;
okay i'm going out. to buy more blank cd-rs and Super Mario Advanced 2.
muwahahaha. laters peep0z.
Thursday, March 28, 2002
jocy's bad habbit:
eating kat-sup from the little kat-sup packages that you get from fast food chains.. =3
eating: carl's jr double bacon western cheeseburger... *burpies*
drinking: big thing of coke
want: my ross =(
things have been outta whack. emotions and such. i hopes ppl like the new layout. i hearts me and my. *oogles again and again*
Wednesday, March 27, 2002
Monday, March 25, 2002
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
gollee. its wed. already. freak. i bought my first two issues on monday - sport compact car and super street. i read about the ABS system. interesting. ^-^; i havent had time to read much.. but i'll get around to it. its been such a busy day! tuesday i went to school, worked, musical practice for the sound of music and then went to kims house to study for the midterm today... god i'm so tired. i havent had any time to sit and relax and do something that i like to do. i'm too tired. maybe i'll watch an episode of initial d and then go off to study. i guess so.
i hate when ppl ask me about what college i'm going to... makes it seem like going to a JC is bad. maybe it is. ~_~; its humiliating when i say, "I dont know... i might go to a JC" in comparison to the other person... when they say, "Oh... well i'm going to
midterm today! wish me luck! and as i wait for my horn... it should be comming in today as well. ^_^ *happy*. hRm. now i should go off and go buy kim and sarah their b'day presents. XD hahahaha. going to go. *insane*
listenin to: the whiiiiiiiiiiirr of my computer
Sunday, March 17, 2002
i've been watching Initial D. thanks to my Evil Rage. ^_~
that anime series is fucking addiciting - makes me wanna get into racing even more. I guess i'm going to start buying magazines as Takumi suggested to me. sounds like a good idea - i mean drivings fun... (when you're not gonna get hit by someone else) and i love speed... i donno. maybe this is another psychological game on myself just to do this cuz its a "guy" thing. but screw that. speedness is fun. hopefully Mike will loan me some mags. XD either that or i'll run off to b&n and buy some mags there too. i need to pick myself up a big cd case also... so i can store my anime cd's in it. XD
Saturday, March 16, 2002
ladies and gentleman i'd like to file for suicide.
what can i do when you've got no where else to go... but to face the same fucking stupid shit.
i aint going to college... i didn't make it anywhere.
my dad knew it and just rubbed it in. "You didn't get a big package - your not going to San Luis Obispo"
gee thanks. my parents never had faith in me. they just said it to make me feel better. they knew i was going to go to a community college. and i don't want to. i don't care what people say about it - community college is too easy. i hate it. i can pass classes with my eyes closed. and turning 18 isnt going to get me out of the house. i want out. can't anyone see that? no one understands how hard it is to live at home. of course everyone tells me, "Jocy your so smart and your a load of bull, stop shittin yourself and be happy your smart." well ladies and gents i'm not. i'm dumb. and i'm not going to college. i swear to god... i'm going to drive myself to the brink of insanity. no one would care. no one would care if i went to college or not. fuck. my parents knew it and had no faith in me. i feel like i've lost the battle in my life. that i'm nothing. i'm not going to make it. i won't survive. i hate this life. i want to die - so badly.
Thursday, March 14, 2002
lala. so tiredness. what a day what a day.
went to school, then went to work. and then - got picked up by Eris, Cypress, and Umi-chan. then we went to san carlos blockbuster and then to the belmont and then to molly stones. then we went back to kims house watched anime, ate... and i love skiff. um yeah. can't think. docenting tomorrow...
why are cats cats? they make me all happyness.
and damn it... ppl like poking me. esp. in those tender spots. >_<
nyo.
i'm seriously considering changing my address... and moving this blog. but i'm not so sure. what do people take on it?
you know what sucks is when my own parents don't even have faith in me... that i will get into a college. my mom said to me today, "Oh will you sign up for CSM any way? so you'll stay on my insurance?"
WTF IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!?!
do you have any faith in me? or am i that dumb of a person. >_< fucking a. just cuz i suck at taking standardized tests... doesn't mean that i should be rejected from every single college... fuck i've only gotten 1 rejected letter. or more like "you've been put on the waiting list" letter. argh. knowing that my parents have no faith in me getting into college just makes me depressed. wtf kind of child am i?on the lighter note - i won my horn. i'm very happy. i learned from the Seller that i was bidding against a USC professor... funny how i applied there.
also today... i met up with Kengar000000 for lunchies! We didn't know where to go... so we started driving around... and ended up in Pacifica. It was SOOOO BEAUTIFUL. We saw the beach, the rocky shores, the ocean... and we ended up going to a small italian sandwhich shop in pacifica.
i have never had the best sandwhich in my life... ever
i'd have to say... it was the BEST. the best in my entire life. i ordered a "Tomaso" sandwich. It was like yummi sourdough bread, and lots of mayo (i bet ross would love this sandwich too), tomatos, real turkey, tomatos, lettuce, and MELTED chhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeese. It wasn't too hot, and it wasn't too cold... it was the perfect sandwich. den kens and i went to the beach... well "beach" (it was too windy up dere). and we ate our sandwiches and we stared at the pidgeons... and the rejected ones (they were brown colored!) and we talked. about lots of things. den he took me home (i got home before 5 like mom asked) and we drove on Highway 1. it was so beautiful. i couldn't believe it - and we drove through half moon bay. it was so wonderful... now i'll sit here and talk to friends. haha. works tomorrow. Kim's house tomorrow!!! world domination.... in the near future - please look for future public postings on Jocy's plan for world domination. XDnp: Secret Garden by Me & My
in the secret garden
you can find the answer
of energy and mystery
for your own heart...
you will find... you will find... you will find the answer...
Wednesday, March 13, 2002
i won...
I WON...
I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XD XD XDhttp://cgi.ebay.com/aw-cgi/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=850303213
W0RD uP y0. I F-H0Rn FaWkin w0n. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDddd
*jocy goes insane and goes off to meet up w/ Kengarr0000... for lunch* =D```
Tuesday, March 12, 2002
did i ever mention that we tried to look for the q-cup in san mateo? we didn't find it. my mums and i think that it's like... not opened yet or sum bullshit like that =3
gollee - ddrfreak is 2 years old... and i'm retired. whats new? XD i can't believe its been around for that long... and so are my friends. i've known for more than a year now.
i wanted to blog some other stuff - but i don't remember. i gots the 1st episode of Cool Devices thanks to the wonderful Taiki uM. much0 thankus. yeah. trying to win that bid on the Conn 8D horn... made in 1965. i hopes i win. =O i gots to get kimz her b'day present. >_< and den... i gotta uRm. go do stuff. o_O;; whatever. cant think straight. oh yeah... i guess i'll outline my govt paper here.
My Paper on the Internet and the 1st Admendment (freedom of speech)
- History of the internet and original use of it
- what it is used for now
- privacy
- obsenity
- parental protection
- closing
I'm not sure what else to say... i bet saying "I like sex" on my blog is obsene and I'm breaking the 1st admendment rule thing it. o_O; whatever.
listening to: mexico by cake
i was high, but she was the sky
oh baby i was bound for mexico
oh baby i was bound to let you go
oooooooh.... oh oh oh....
lalala. so on friday guess what i got? my di gi charat dx plushies!
yeah. they're big and so kyute! XD XD XD
and you know what? being a docent... is hard =O lots of work... kim and i took a whole bunch of pics on our docenting day up at the Hospital in Sausolito. I mean seirously
first of all - ya gotta drive there. we drive up to sausolito for Docenting at the hospital. I mean these shots were taken on the way back... but we gotta go over it before too you know? =D It's so beautiful though - especially on a nice sunny day. you can see all those boats out in the sea... and the bridge itself is beautiful.
and on the way there... you go through tons of stoplights and tunnels... and YES there is this one way tunnel to the other part of sausolito (to the Marine Mammal Center) with a 5 minute traffic light. I'm dead serious! a 5 minute traffic light. you'd be real lucky if you didn't have to park your car and wait. XD
and finally docenting at the hospital - we got to see to Elephant seal pups up close and they were both underweight. one of them was amciated. =( not fun. we got to see tube feeding... (the two guys on the left) and saw how they do "fish schooling" and teach the seals how to eat fish...
and then after working hard - docenting... we go homes.. and usually end up sleeping on the way back. =O speaking of sleep i guess i should go do that. =D
jocy wants to win this: http://cgi.ebay.com/aw-cgi/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=850303213
i want that french horn! >_<;
Sunday, March 10, 2002
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Saturday, March 09, 2002
rubber duckyness.... phooie.
what a day what a day... the weeks pass by faster and faster. god damn.
today was AngelAnne's small birthday gathering... it was fun. watched some Weiss and ate pocky, nori, pizza and much much more! =O nummers. =D i got to toss nori at nori-head again. all good. i got to go home with sum nori and some strawberry gummys. XD XD XD nummie. so yeah. that was fun. AngelAnne has the most KAWAII cat ever! she looks like she just got out of the laundery... but thats what makes it kyuuuuuuuuuuuute. yah. oooou. and i showed dem mai new Puchiko!!! XD XD so kyuteness.
i gots my DX Di Gi Charat plushes last night!!! I was soooooo happy! and now i'm tremendously happy that i payed a good price for them! XD so um yah. =O
after the party bro, dad, and i headed to SVGL. played some DRUM MANIA y0. it ownz u for realz! =O i've gotten better! i can pass those yellow colored songs... the highest number thinggy i tried was "40" so i'm really happy! i also got to see Dr. Hikaaaaru! =O surprized surprized! yes i was! so happi to see her. ^_^ played PIU, wore Dr. Hikaru's Platforms!! =O i was uber tallness. we played some PIU, watched her freestyle to ddr 5th mix, and played DMX 2nd mix, Drum Mania... yeaaaah. it was all good. XD i saw other ppl too... like... SHADOW MEEH TWICE XD XD XD. good to see him again! =O i owez him that DBZ sound track... *must remember* yeah. it was alllll goooood. hRm. i got bruises on mai arms. i think they were from playing too much0 DMX 2nd mix. my arms hurt lots from DMX and Drum Mania. =O
after that we went to pasta pomodoro... nummies. den to q-cup for some boba and chicken! and I have discovered... THEY OPENED A Q-CUP IN SAN MATEO!!! =O!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR REALZ. jocy is much0 happi now. XD XD XD yeaaaaah. and now i'm at home. o_O;;
sarah was going to show me how to make a rainbow gradient. XD yeah. i miss Rosshi too. =T i hope he had funn0rs at his nephew b'day party. XD yeah. i've been thinking lots. esp. about our relationship. we've been together for so long.... i can't believe it. i can't believe a year has passed by - so fast. its amazing. and no matter how much he says he's such a horrible boyfriend - he isnt. so maybe at times i have those times where i get a bit pissy... but then again don't we all? i guess its the fact that i don't get to see him that often that every lil moment that i spend with him on the phone, online, where-ever is important to me. every little thing.
*after 20 minutes... compu crash0rs... and computa hax0rs*
uRm. yeah. XD XD.
what was i saying? oh about Ross. I lub u. the end. through the tough times and hard times... my heart follows you. =D
hRm. what else? oh. i got rejected from Cal Poly Pomona... dey said, "you've been put onto our waiting list..." aka your just dumb... x_X;; *sighs* only 2 more letters to wait for... reading that letter makes me feel dumb. WHO in the fucking world would WANT to go to Cal Poly POMONA... 1000 positions filled... and then they TOLD me that i should do URBAN DESIGN. wtf do they think i am? >:O makes me angry. telling me that i didnt get in... then telling me to switch majors... on HELL FUCKING NO. who would want to do that any way? why would anyone want to go to pomona... just tells me that i'm too stupid to go to a reject school. argh. >_< whatever. i hate this. i hate college. i just want to get away from home. argh argh!!
argh. my parents keep on asking me to download that damn income tax bullshit. watever. gR. i'm pissed. well no i'm not. i'm just upset about that damn college letters. g0d. all those sweets today! i'm like totally wired. =O
pasta pomodoro's dreamsicle OWNZ meeh. yeaaaaaaaah. i think i'm done. o_O; i'm outz.
Friday, March 08, 2002
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aiights. i'm out to lunch y0. uRm. i think i might get a cell phone... =3 i'm gonna go out and go get lunch, try out my boomerang and stalk a friend at a private school XD XD. lates all.
Thursday, March 07, 2002
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Wednesday, March 06, 2002
Monday, March 04, 2002
goooooood evening! its been such a wonderful day. but then again arch. drawing class was much0 confusing. x_X;; so i guess i should do a summary of the weekend as Eris405 has requested. =P to you too. uRm. to see someone elses point of view go to Nori Breath's Blog aka Sleepy Umi-chans blog.
so Saturday i woke up at like 10:15 and i got ready to go and leave by like 10:25... but my mom said, "Oh hold on... i'll be ready in a minute" which soon became... 10:45am. so ending up i got to Eris405's house at like 11:00am. so we left to kinokuniya at like 11:30.
We got to kinokuniya around 12something... =D and we went straight to the bookstore. so um. i gots kim vol 2 of some yaoi comic. and ray-chan DNAngel 6. and then i picked up myself the first vol of Black Cat... (it sounded interesting... anything w/ cats is always interesting). and the Wish art book. ^^; i spent like $40 bucks. T_T;;; and then we went to the staionary store. i bought a nyan nyan naynko cell phone charm... and a nnnko drawstring bag. its mucho cute! ^^; maybe i'll take a pic of it. ^^;
after that we headed down to the supermarket. i bought lots of CC Grape... apprently my bro likes it too. o_O;; and then we gots lots of stuff... Green Tea high soft... and other yum yums. ^^; what else? we got these honey ball things, that was yummi, marshmellow things, NORI NORI NORI...... i love nori. =D it was alllll yummi.
after that we started heading back north to go pick up Sarah. we kinda lost our way... but we eventually found "Palm ave." but yeah. ^^; we got to her place early! and i thought we were going to be late. o_O; so we sat around in the back waiting for Sarah to show up. in the mean time we were having "hit each other with melty kiss, pudding marshmellow, and nori wars" it was fun. ^^:
**NOTICE:**
hitting Umi-chan w/ Nori is always guarenteed a good laugh
muwahaha. esp. when they come in those long big packs. XD XD XD
anyway... so we picked up Sarah... and drove towards the 280 freeway. boy oh boy is the Stanford campus BIG. lots and lots of land. i didnt know it used to be rich farm land. XD XD mooooooo. so we headed up towards 280.... and Eris was going to take the 280 North on ramp... but i said no take the 280 south ramp... and then it happened... stuff happened and she hit the curbby thingy... and then i felt the car go kuh-thunk-thunk-thunk... and i thought in my head, *oh shit... the tire blew i bet* and so i had her park, turn on the emergency lights, and i got out of the car and checked the tire. sure enough i was right. i told her we needed to get the car off the road, so i ended up guiding it off the road and onto a dirt road as the other three helped us push. Then... i tried calling for help at Ty-zone... but i got comforting help. ^^: i found out that AAA is supposed to change tires for free. so i ended up calling them. i'm kinda surprized that Eris didn't know she had a spare tire... cuz there was one. but then again i would have changed it - but i didnt know how to use a screw jack thing. o_O;;; i've only used those modern jack ones... well i'll have to learn sometime. so we ended up calling AAA and the fixed the tire... we changed it. Then we waited for Eris and Umi-chan's mom to show up - she was so kind to exchange cars with us. ^-^ then... we took off and went to svgl.
we got to svgl - it was CROWDED. o_o; i've never seen so many ppl at once. i saw a whole bunch of ppl. esp. my love. ^^; he gots me the MGL morning token special... like $20 bucks worth... and i got double. muwahahaha. >:D so... i took off and played a total of... 1 game of DMX 2nd mix, 2 games of drum mania, and 1 game of PIU. while i was playing PIU the strangest thing happened to me... Sl1p was there. o_O; and he said, "Hey Jocy..."
O_o;;;;;
HOLY FUCKING MOTHER OF GOD. thats all i could think of... he said... "Hey Jocy"... and the world comes to an end. i'm kinda scared now. o_O;;;; so strange so strange!!! i'm not sure what is up... and then he was like, "You know you should do that PIU spin" while i was playing to Starian... and i was like... wtf? o_O; he's talking to me again... strangeness. o_O; i'm all freaked out. but at least i got to spend some time w/ mai luber. ^_^;then we headed to q-cup... THEY RE-OPENED!!! jocy is now happy and is 0wn3d. they 0wn meeh. they were re-modeling and now its all finished. and they have boba, chicken... AND crepes! so i got milk pearl tea... barley flav as usual. =P (for those of u who don't know my fav. flav) and bought everyone some chicken... we ate it all. mmmmm good. den we went to some random store to buy gifts for Eris' mom as a thank you for being nice to her. then we went home back on 280.
we gots home, gave her mom the gift... the headed out to TGIF. XD nummors. i got the french dip. not too bad. wish they didn't spill the au jus on the fries. >_<; after that we went back to Eris' place. Sarah, Eris and I played Threads of Fate... and basically after that i was lounging around their house playing games. i took a shower... and what not... and fell asleep sometime...
woke up the next day around 8... went back to sleep and woke up around 8:40... so i got up and started getting dressed and what not... and i left my bear and green tea hi-soft at their house. x_X;;; Cranberry Peach juice 0wNz j00 4 free yeah. that stuff is so good. den i went up to sausolito... did some random docenting for a while, then got to check out The Marine Mammal Center's database. its kinda cool. maybe i'll think of something good... XD and yeah... and thats what happened over the weekend.
i was just thinking momentarily... do i really compare all my guys to Nogard? but he's a fictional character... only in my state of mind... i'm confused. o_O; *sighs* i'm still waiting for college letters... this suck. =( everyone's gotten in somewhere... everyone but me. =( alright i'm out. i blogged a lot.
Sunday, March 03, 2002
I may look funny, but I’m one of the best penguins under the sun! Yes, that’s right, the sun! I can’t stand hanging around in freezing weather, keep it away! I’m a nice sized bird, about medium weight and height. My population is globaly increasing!
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ello ello! yay! i'm posting on my blog again! the past two days have been like @_@;; i don't want to really sum it up... but i'm just here. lounging around. ^^: someone IM me and get me away from the world of homework. o_o;
