weeeeeee. i gots to see my rosshi yesterday. it felt good... so what if i did see him on xmas day... its good to see him again. XD yeah. i'm gonna work on the lilneko site... yeah. =O
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/28/2001 06:40:00 PM

 
did i mention i went to the dickens fair? ^_______^:
i went w/ mai rosshi, daddy and my bro. it was fun.
frosted almonds are like =O``````````
its drooling time! too bad... its all been eaten. -_-;
hopefully i can find lance tonite and pick up that gameboy camera link... i want to clean out those pics so i can take more pics tomorrow!! =O
and ross if your reading this, call me on my cell! i'm at work. =D

ubsessing over - Fly High by Me & My
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/27/2001 11:30:00 AM

 
*sighs*

today i was reminded why i hate my relatives...
they spill miso soup on ya. >_<
anyway.... my step aunt suckth big time... she spilled miso soup on my pants.
but hey! i got $20 from my bro... we had a bet that i couldnt stuff my face w/ sushi =O
anyway... i'm getting tired.. yeah. but today i woke up... tried to go to work... failed. =O
went back to bed... played some chrono cross... got up... went online, ordered amici pizza,
did more random online stuff... i'm in the middle of re-doing the lilneko site... its kinda comming out well.
i gotta wait for jas' email tho. >_< huuuuurry! after that... doobled around the house some more...
then went out to dinner w/ my step aunt... i was feelin down and misrable... i hate my grandma,
i hate my step aunt... i think my mom and bro noticed... and when she spilled that miso soup...
it made my heart sink into a pool of ice. it suckth. then i got home... and i've been working on the site... hopefully it will be up sometime. =O
yeah. and poooor blogger. got hax0red. >_<
hax0ring ish illegal! =O just hax0r mean people. >_< (like Bush)
yeah. i get to go to SVGL friday! more drum mania! and hopefully i'll be able to pick up lance's mad-catz Game Boy camera pc link! ^_____^; then i can post the wonderful xmas pict0rs! yaaay! now i'm gonna go... and play some chrono cross, listen to me and my... and sleep0rs. cuz i gotta work tomorrow...

i also need to write a personal statement... where do i start? =O

i'm hearing - The Dream Within by Lara Fabian
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/26/2001 11:51:00 PM

 
w00t w00t.
merry xmas y'all. Its been an alright one. whats better then a sunnyvale golf land to cheer ya up?
yeah. so our family went to the midnight mass @ IHM (Immaculate heart of mary... our church y0) which meant! I could sleep in today! ^_____^; which i did. any way... went to church... then hung around online after. ^^; yeah. after that... i slept and slept and slept and slept... yummilicious. then i woke upperz and it was xmas. yay! got dressed... and we didnt even open presents till like 1pm. =B

I gots really neat things!
- chococat blanket
- chococat pillow... (noticing a trend here?)
- Blood and Gold by anne rice (a continuation of the vamp. chronicles)
- a game boy camera! *hugglies her bro*
- cd case
- micheal jacksons new cd
- a necklace.

and later i saw Rosshi. and he gave me: Me & My's latest album! FLY HIGH. ^_________________^;
i love me and my a bit tooooooo mucho. but what can i say? 1 album down and 2 more to go. ^^;
so after presents, me, my dad and my bro headed out... we went to the "Super Bowl" where we ate some pho. heehee. get it? Super Bowl? =B i'mma dork. after that we headed over to q-cup, got milk pearl tea and some chicken. =D yumm0rs. then we headed to svgl.

i gots to see jammar and his bro emphasys (sp???) and later i saw Crys. ^_^; it was good seeing some people... i played some DMX 2nd mix... that game owns my soul for life... and i got farther in marathon mode. =D lets see what else... i played some PIU. =D and then... later when Ross finally showed up... i got dragged into the world of... Drum mania... all i can say is =O!!! I'm going back to svgl on friday to play some Drum mania!!! =O``` droolage! Its really fun. so i'm just a beginner... but thats where we all gotta start right? ^_^;; n e way. after that we went to carols... that american food place... o_O; they ran out of food. =B and then we went home... i lounged around the house and we decided to go to the movies and go watch Lord of the Rings...

we got there a bit late. ^^; tickets were sold out for the 10:00 showing.. so instead we watched Oceans Eleven...
i've discovered in myself... i dig villians... villians turn me on =O``
i really liked the movie a lot. thats all i gotta say... besides, i dig villians. >:D
i'm such an evil kid. and now here i am. i'm searching for a mad catz game boy camera pc link. i need one. >_< but i think i will go soon. so ending up i've been in an alright mellow mood... now that most of that xmas family shit is out of the way... yeah. i think i might have to go to work tomorrow, i'm not quite sure yet. but at least i get sushi for dinner tomorrow night. ^_____^; oh well. heading out.
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/26/2001 01:52:00 AM

 
i want to say stuff... but i'm too lazy to type. i'll have one of those days where i'll vent it all out... one day. but not now.
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/24/2001 08:19:00 PM

 
I'd like to say.. i hate xmas.
maybe its because there is no love, no gift of giving. its just a materialistic world. there is so much hate in the world that i live in... i dont have any more effort to live on and on. i dont know. i guess lately i've been a depressed wreck and a semi-suicidal one too. -_-; its really bad. it really sucks when no one in your family gets along... cuz its someone like me who gets hurt the most.

roar. i'm wrapping up my parents gift right now... =B
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/22/2001 10:18:00 PM

 
i want to vent... but i cant.

is it wrong to be just slightly self centered? or if i am, am i sinning?

i swear, i'm going to hell.
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/20/2001 11:13:00 PM

 
*notes to self* library + cell phone = BAD.

not nice. >_< esp. to librarians...
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/17/2001 02:22:00 PM

 
hahaha. i'm at the library and i'm very bored... i have to make xmas gifts when i get home. um. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. OMFG I FOUND A SITE THAT OWNS ME LYKE WHUT LYKE WHUT!!

http://www.meandmy.dk/

this site owns me for realz. i want to buy all of the cd's and the singles! guaaaaaaaaar. i still have to make xmas gifts. i wonder where kim went, we were going to make a gift for daniel. =B anyway. i guess i'd better go. i need to go home, but i'm stuck here... i'm hungry too. i hope theres some food at home. yeah. so yeah. that site made me happy... now if i can go out and buy those albums... =T
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/17/2001 02:19:00 PM

 
wooooooow. its been a good few days... since i've blogged. oh my god, i can't believe all the things that have been going on. I've just been... buzy. Like this whole week... and this weekend is already half over. anyway... i guess maybe i should just outline my whole week... =B

last week: i got sick.... how sad. =P
saturday: i went to orchestra rehersal... then went ice skating w/ my GS troop in frisco... i think i blogged about that already.
sunday: performance... go Romeo and Juliet!
monday: school... after that... stuff. i dont remember.
tuesday: more stuff... i don't remember. school and work. and my brothers b'day. note further down my rant on him.
wed: aniversary... *sings* tralala
thursday: my german final
friday: work...
saturday: fobby drinks, shopping, svgl, SEEING FRIENDS! *i love them* then dance @ hillsdale mall, then seeing xmas carol @ Norte Dame, then dinner.. and now i'm typing. yeah.

today was fun. i had a lot of fun w/ my luvie dubie. teeheehee. yeah. its been such a buzy week... i miss him again. =( am i that uber obessessive? i hope not... well... not uber obessessive where i forget people... and stop doing things... and yeah. =B any way... we went to valco... and did a whole bunch of things, ran around the shops, buy a few gifts here and there... which i'm not going to mention b/c someones bound to read it here... any way. i still need to think of what to give my love for xmas. for our anni. i gave him a vase that i painted... and inside... were notes that i wrote to him practically all year around. i think i have a few more notes lying around the house.. but thats okay. i wrote them... but i could never get a chance to give them to him. but i finally have. i dont know how he feels about that... but i put my heart and thought into it. and i'm not kidding. so yeah. i got some fobby drinks too today! yum. and we got to go to svgl... and i saw PEOPLE! wonderful friends... i saw my Jas! XD and i saw Sam and Jennie-bean. and anthony! speaking of "visit me now!" it was all pure luck. =D and i saw other random people like ukyo. heehee. =B any way, for those who are reading this... just b/c i retired from DDR... doesnt mean i've retired from PIU and DancemaniaX and that doesnt mean i've stopped going to arcades! i've just stepped away from ddr... maybe i'll return to it? if i ever find a passion for it again... cuz i just dont. =T i dont know. so yeah. but i promised my love that i would do a bonnacia routine w/ him... he said he was going to choreagraph it.. but i think i'll help him. i already got the steps teeheehee! i want to do a remember you routine also... but i dont know if i'll ever get that chance... i thimk i should get the steps too so i can work out a routine for that song. yeah. what else can i say? i dont remember.... oh yeah. about my brother.

my brother is an ungrateful, slobering, self-centered pig! who is insensitive to all those around him... he gave my parents the whiney tantrum today... ~_~; sometimes it makes me wonder, what did i do to make him that way? i cried on the way to valco today... i was telling ross about my bro... how he treats me and stuff... and ross said, "Its sad... cuz he'll turn out to be such a horrible guy... and girls dig him..." is that true? i dont know. i hope not... i wouldnt be able to picture anyone dating an ungrateful pig like that. >_< ugh. i'm going to stop thinking about that... so it wont make me depressed.

*sighs* its been such a long week... 1 more week... and then vacation! which means... i gotta work w/ presents!!! @_@; i have to make a whole bunch! talk about slave labor... and i will never ever wear a collar that says "slave" i'd rather be called something sweeter... =P like "pet" esp. "kitten" teeheehee. *insane* n e way. i'm going to go. i think i'll upload the other random pics later... i lub0rs my digi cam.

btw... my store sells lighters at work!!! I WANT THEM!!! TRIGUN LIGHTERS! TRIGUN BELT BUCKLES... ALL AT MY WORK! i havent gotten my paycheck either... >_< i need cash. i wonder if my parents will get me a horn for xmas. i doubt it though... =T n e way. going off to sleep.
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/16/2001 01:42:00 AM

 
Its... 1 year... isnt it amazing? well almost.... in like half an hour or so.

Ross. I love you.
the fact that we've been together for so long amazes me... how you put up with me, my ranting, my depression... just me. It makes me smile to see how strong you are and how you've always been there for me... even today. You make me smile, you make me squirm with joy... you make up the days when i am down... you make them better then they usually are. heehee. i've spoken my small part... you know the rest. I'm just happy that i've found you in my life...
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/11/2001 11:13:00 PM

 
i did a life link and it will have random pics... w/ my digi cam. yeah. o_o;
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/10/2001 10:24:00 PM

 
yum. today ish a horrible day... i don wanna sum it up. i feel so lazy. I was to shreep and shreep and shreep. sheep. =B any way. uh yeah. band class today stucked. big time... ~_~ "NO LIQUIDS IN BAND CLASS" and everyone goes... "But it's water... o_o;;;" straaaaaaange. n e way yeah. ^-^;

i go now. i post more later i guess. =B
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/05/2001 10:42:00 PM

 
waaaaaaaaaaaaai. today suckth. big time. I'm feeling sick... blech. out of all things.. it happens to me. sometimes i wonder, is it just me with a stroke of bad luck? or is it just cuz i'm me? i donno. =T

listening to - So deep
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/03/2001 11:35:00 PM

 
I'd like to say... i think i've given up on the whole DDR scene. I have decided to retire from DDR and those DDR tournaments...

sure some of you may rejoice, and some of you might wonder why... but i don't care how you feel. i don't give a damn. I'm going to rant, and if you don't like it, then just move on and ignore my post.

i guess ever since i've been into ddr its been wonderful, but i think now... i'm going to retire from ddr and ddr tournaments. why? cuz i just plain suck. i don't even know why i'm here. i can't dance, i can't freestyle, i'm not perfect. i'm most horribly disformed and unproporitional that it makes everyone turn around in disgust. Whatever. I've given up, and on top of that... tournaments make me depressed. I don't know why. maybe its something that I can't have... those moments which are like heaven to me which i can never ever have in my life. or maybe its just... i'm not fit for it. i don't know. i don't have the explaination for it. even when i'm not at tournaments it makes me depressed. I don't know why, it just does. don't ask questions cuz i can't give answer. but as of right now... i'm going to retire. i think its time to move on. i think i'm going to go back to the old ways again... and for those of you who don't know me, don't bother following after, its not worth knowing someone like me.

i guess this is a semi-short rant... but i've given up. i thought it used to make me happy, but it ended up faltering... i guess however... all in the end i come out w/ one thing in my hands... and thats music. My eyes have been opened to new views... but still. i don't know. i don't know how to feel, what to feel... i give up. I'm going to step down and just dissapear...
- posted by LiLUsako @ 12/03/2001 12:04:00 AM