desired dreams
Tuesday, April 24, 2001
i feel so tired today. we had star testing stuff. i'm not really used to having so many hours of school before lunch. i dont have food either. o_O; prom ish comming up. and so is the band festival. what else hmmm? ErR. ap tests! i r die now! okay... i should go. o_O school major sux0rs. sometimes i wish i was a guy... i'd be better at it too. =P but then again. certain guys say i'm truely a woman. go figure. =D
Monday, April 23, 2001
i r die. *sniff*
i miss my evanesenct luved one. he so bubbly. ^-^
god. if only i could tell you my weekend. but i'm too tired. i r sad. i've been so buzy. ugh. i r die. but friday was nice. but i've been up too late. work too much. ho chi minh is not a commie. yeah. stuff like that. been working on the tribunal. i get to argue tomorrow in history class now. yay. ^-^ i go bed now. i think. XD
Friday, April 13, 2001
I MISS YOU TOO!!!!!! So much!!! *huggles* I love this new thingy! It's like sending an email without going away from the board. Whats this about me not talking to you?? OMG I think I'll die! I love hearing your voice. I already miss your sweet sound. Doesnt your mom know that by doing this shes only making our love stronger? Once I finally call you after the 2 weeks are over I'd just listen to you and cry because talking to you is something I look forward to and to have that taken away from me is a nightmare. I love you. I miss you. I wanna hold you. bye love.
right now im at the fremont library and i will come by your libary right now. hopefully you will get this message and wait for me.
It feels good to know you are feeling better. Anywho I'll be dropping by sometime between 6 and 6:30 I'll see you there. Love you lots babe!
Dont have much time here at the libary but I wanted to drop a line just to say... I LOVE YOU! Talk to you later. oh and the fricking server at work is still down! GAH! Oh well I still have your love!
Here I am at the Fremont library again. Lets see..oh tonight I'll be going to the Metreon because I have no money but I do have a $40 card and a $7 bart ticket! woohoo! But first I'll be at my sisters for a bit and the saturday I have my goddaughters b-day party to go to. GOD i wish i could call you!!!! *huggles* Miss you, love you, can't stop thing about you. WHERS MY WEBCAM!!! LOL Anywho..I'll chat with you later love. Bye
Hi! Hmmm maybe I should just tell someone the truth. Heh heh. Anyway I'm pretty sure you saw me at your concert last night. It was great. Honestly that was my first time at a concert like that. I was like... WOW. I have a new appreation for live classical music. Hering it on the radio doesn't do it justice. It has to be more than heard. It has to be FELT. Everything was just great last night. I left after I saw your parents. I didn't know what your mom would do to me if she saw me there. Well I gotta go.. take care. Love you lots! *huggles*
Just wanted to say. I love you. Thats all. Bye Jocy-love.
Yes mis..... I will be home. I'll be awaiting your arrival.
Seeing as you are a fair and just Mis...... I request that I may be able to make one stop and that is to be at the bank. Please understand as I NEED to do this. Please reply. Thank you Mis......
I love you.
Why you ask? Well its quite simple. Ill buy a gun and then order you to shoot and kill me. I'm sorry but right now I'm hella depressed. My mom and I got into it this morning. I left my house this morning hella upset and just wanted to drive off a bridge or something. ACK! I'm sorry for letting you know hun. I still love you.
He thinks I'm done with the phone and so he disconnects me and goes online!!! At the time you told me you were going to blow your nose and I just thought you were taking forever. but then i went outside and saw him online!! I was like WTF?? So yeah Im sorry for the phone cutting out on us like that. I feel horrible.
Just in case you forgot... I LOVE YOU.
Hi hunnie! Well there are some things I was thinking about earlier. For example you tell me how much you love the fact I'm patient with you. In actuality it's really you than has been patient with me. I'll elaborate on this tonight. Other thoughts include... nah I'll just save it for tonight. Sooo much I wanna discuss with you. I wanna talk soo bad. Well I guess I'll leave you alone. Talk to you tonight at 10:00. Bye love.
the sweetest girl i ever met ...is you!!! I love you hun.
ill be leaving home soon. hope you will wait for me. ill see you shortly.
Please forgive me hun. I feel like an asshole right now. I feel as if I've been disappointing you. I'll make it up to you I promise. I wanna cry now because of this. Ack! Ill see you tonight hun. 7 at the latest. Bye for now love.
I didnt call you last night! I feel like an ass. I noticed on the caller ID thing that you called around 9:50. I'm sorry but I didnt hear the phone ring. My mom had it and when I checked with her she was still on the pnone then she gave it to my brother and I fell asleep due to lack of sleep the night before. I'm sorry hun. I'll be at Fanime around 8 at the latest. Thanks to my usual friday afternoon errands. I guess I'll see you at either the machines or on the "real" dance floor. If you have a better idea on where to meet let me know. Like maybe at the DDR machine at 8??? I dunno, it's still your month so you let me know. See you tonight hun. I'm really looking forward to dancing with you for real. Take care. I love you.
if you get this before you get picked up. i need someone's phone number again. i left it at jome. sorry. I love you!
Sorry I havent been around much lately. But I swear it's not my fault. I wanna go down to Hi-5 later. Since I know not that many people know ... yet. So yeah I'll call later tonight like 10 -10:30 ish. Talk to you then. Love you lots.
GAAAAAAAAH!!! WHY AM I SOOOOOOOOOOO IN LOVE?!?!?!!? *dies* XD
Thursday, April 12, 2001
ooooooooooooooohki. since i'm not online. i might as well type everying onto paper or something and vent. yeah. while i talk to my 'owner' here, i guess i can type out my quite eventful and emotional day. it sucks to be a cancer. wow. my bro finally discovered the greatness of napster. XD n e way. So finally this person i knew finally blew it and told me they didnt like me. it makes me wonder how long it took for em to finally say it. i'm kinda happy now. at least i dont have to worry about it n e more. heres the convo and now i'm free! i dont have to worry about things any more. i dont care if that person continues to dislike me, or what not, their reasons are quite lame, and i dont care now. i have other people to care for me. and for me to care for them. yeah. gah. and i have been enlighed by miss monki for her reasoning of life, and how much she values the friends she trusts. ^-^ i feel better now. and i give mucho props to jahi today, for defining the term of 'my-style' today. i feel mucho better now. =D yeah. i had such an emotional day. happyiness, depression, trying to discover myself, and other randomness. and so cuz of that odd convo i had with that special no longer friend, i re-did the lilneko.com website. yeah yeah. i spent hella time on it and such. and i guess it looks better now? iono. just wait! i want to play w/ kuroneko! *huggles photo shop* i have a lot to learn. so what else? uRm. xxDDRmanicxx im's me and tells me how ubber leet he is b/c he is visitor nummer 1337 (aka leet aka elite for those who dont know) on mish www.monki.net site... yeah. he even sent me an image of it here... go see! it r freaky! o_O; serious. i swear. jeez. i need to take physics. hRm. yeah. something like that. i think this blog will be very long. o_O; yeah. i downloaded lots of mp3s, and i downloaded that CoCo Lee song from hidden dragon, crouching tiger that amie said was really nice, so i did. ish really purdy. i'm thinking of making a big neko mp3. o_O; of like neko sounds ie: ryo-ohki, kuroneko, tama-san yeah. stuff like that. teehee. i luv spring vacation. i wish it was longer. i wonder what will happen once i get bak to skoo. i hate how time becomes shorter and shorter as you grow up. i was told by someone speshul yesterday never to grow up... omg. i just lub0r him. =D yeah. hRm. maybe i should put up a lyrics page? hRm. iono. i could do that. or put up an mp3 page. =X omg. that would be hella stuff. wow. i'm done ranting for the evening. i get to listen to my 'owner' sleep over the phone. its so kawaii. ^-^ yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! blobs are the winnar. o_O yeah. sumphin like that. hamlet... watching on tv now. =D
Wednesday, April 11, 2001
oooohki. i guess i can blog a lot of stuff right now. i feel sick tho. very sick. =X i think i have the fever. not fun while ur on spring vacation. yah. so catching up on stuff, fanime was hella fun. i understand why people stay over night now. cuz its worth it. you have sooooo mucho fun. the dance floor on saturday night was great. but like even more, just aimlessly roaming around, watching anime, and buying tons of stuff is the winnar. yah. i feel cold and hot at the same time. head all lightheaded. is the white screen like a tint of green? aiya. headache... anyway, yah. that was what fanime wuz lyke. there were lots of cos players... and for some reason, all the ugly girls cosplayed as lil hoe's.... o.o; they had like nothing on. and all the cute girls covered up when it came to clothing... yeah. it was weird. n e way. but i saw lots of ddr freak. and met lots of people... and the solo machine... weeee. i r in heaven. but 1.50 for 3 songs... not the winnar. but there's always friends of ty's =D. and like the past fridays i went to great america, that was funn0rs. yeah. great america, and just plain hanging out at ty's. and last friday i got to seee mishtare Eric! GOOD BUDDY! I miss him being in cali. =( but it was great to see him again. it just made mee feel soooo good. =D and the peepos took me and my bro to buca... *drools* that place is sooooooooooo good. i want to go there again! *gets hungri* yeah. and yesterday i went to jtown and height... omg. talk about kinkage stuff. i want i want i want tons of stuff from height. XD and from jtown? I got trigun videos! but they're in japanese... =T but its alright. and eventually i will get bakuretsu hunter fan subs! oh oh oh! jocy be happi now. XD now i go. i r hungry. but no want skary grandma cooking food... =X
Saturday, April 07, 2001
I give up. i feel so tired right now. o_O;
iono. gee life can feeeeel soooo good. and yet at the same time... horrible. iono. i dont feel like bloggin right now. iono why. =T
Friday, April 06, 2001
waaahahaha. i'm at school. oy oy oy. i feel so tired... yeah. i feel very tired. i'm getting sick again. not good not good not good.... waaaah. i have learned something. friends can be friends.... those friends that you love will always be there for you. where u need a car ride... your you need someone to talk to. i now know that i've got friends. XD i go out. class starting!
Monday, April 02, 2001
