desired dreams
Wednesday, February 28, 2001
TRALALALALA. JOCY GONNA BE IN BIG TROUBLE!
combined concert sux0rs, my horn lessons nice... i want wish i could finish my homework at the flick of the wrist... =T
oh well. i go poof now. =D
Monday, February 26, 2001
Sunday, February 25, 2001
guar i feel like shit right now. !@()*$!)#(*@#!@#&!(@$*(@#$&*!^@!!! is all i gotta say, trying to get my archives working here... i'll add in more later i suppose.
Wednesday, February 21, 2001
Oi Oi! So the past two days i spent in the library... doing what? ap us history homework. gah. *dies* any way... i'm only done with the outline... gah. theres so much more to do to do to do! >.
Listening to: Tora Tora Tora by Domino
Monday, February 19, 2001
ARGH! I want revamp my site! JOCY B MAD! JOCY B ANGRY!
fucking parents become more hypocrites... so i was using the phone late last nite and like my mom told me to get off at 12... but she wasnt around so i stayed up talked on the phone till like 3 in the morning. then she gets up in the middle of the night gets angry at me for being on the phone and telling me to get off. kaye i was fine with that. the next day tho.... she said HELLA shit about stuff. stupid shit ass stuff. i'm like here sitting w/ my mind on super fast machine thinking mode going, "What the hell what the hell what the hell? you are talking shit, you are sooooooo hypocritacal... GUAR! GUAR GUAR! Kill people! >.< Jocy b mad jocy b mad, plis plis someone kidnap her..." aaaaannnnnnyyyyywaaaaay. so heres what my mom says about last nite, "You know jocy... i know you've gotta be flexible and stuff [jocys head: are you mom? no your not... you fucking arnt] and well you know last nite you should have just asked me for another hour to talk to the person you were talking to... [jocys head: what? what the hell... why the fuck didnt you tell me last nite?] and also i want you to know that YOU FUCKING PUT ME THRO HELL... I had a high blood pressure... and its all your fault... [jocys head: then fucking stop worrying about me, i'm all grown up, i can take care of myself, who the fuck told you to wake up at like 3 in the morning and kick me off the phone? your damned girl does fucking better then your spoiled lil fucking son who's got a bitch and your cool with that...] and finally... when girls like you talk around 3 in the morning it tells the person on the other line that YOU ARE CHEEP [jocys head: wut the fuck? since when did i become cheep? hey i'm chargin the dude i'm talkin on the phone many many bemani games of fun. XD]" so since when did i become reponsible for the health of my mother? i'm still fucking worrying about my own. guaaaaar! so now what? i'm not allowed to be on the net past 11 pm... thats fine with me... and i cant talk to this special mishtare sir for the next 2 weeks?
sooooooooooo what does this lead to? well. it leads to more family probs. today we went out, and i didnt get to go to arrang and play sum pump it up (
any way. so heres the bright thing: my grandma can sew, and what does that mean? Jocys gonna cozplay as Marle from Chrono Trigger... which means my mom has no choice but to let me goooo! XD wahahahaha i r evil. hopefully tho Mishtare Sir might cos play as Chrono? or Magus... they're both kewl. any way. jocy b done ranting, jocy wants a new layout and shit like that. XD i want an azn look to it! tralalala. jocy b crazy jocy b angry mad! guar! jocy out now. =^-^=
Listening to: My Fire by X-Treme
Saturday, February 17, 2001
FUCKING PARENTS I R MADX0RS!!!!!!
GUAR I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL SOMEONE RIGHT NOW. FUCKING TELL ME NO YOU CANT GO, YOUR FRIENDS HAVE NO LIVES. THANK YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH FOR MAKING ME FEEL ANY BETTER. YESH! I DO WANT TO GET AWAY FROM YOU AND YOUR FUCKING FAMILY, AND YES I WANT TO BECOME A LOOSER, WHY?! CUZ I LOVE IT. I DONT FUCKING CARE WHAT YOU THINK. I GAVE YOU A CHANCE YESTERDAY, BUT YOU BLEW IT, I COULDNT SEE MY GUY, OR OTHER NEW PEEPS. YOU ASSHOLES. I GAVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE TODAY. BUT NO YOU FUCKING SAID, 'OH THERE WILL BE ANOTHER TIME YOU CAN DO IT...' FUCK NO, UNLESS YOUR GONNA LET ME GO DOWN TO SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA... WHICH I FUCKING DOUBT. YOU ASS HOLES. THE THANX I GET WHEN I GIVE UP MY LIFE SO I CAN SATISFY YOUR FUCKING 'MY KID NEEDS EDUCATION NEED' FEELING. YOU FUCKERS. THERE IS NO THANX. YOU FUCKING ASS HOLES. THINKING YOUR THE ONLY ONES WHERE YOU'VE GOTTA SUFFER FROM THE WORLD. WELL LET ME TELL YOU, YOU AINT EVERYTHING. I'VE GOT A LIFE TOO AND I WANT TO LIVE IT. FUCK THIS SHIT. I HATE YOU ALL. I HATE YOU AND YOUR FUCKING MORALS AND RULES. I DONT CARE ANY MORE. I FUCKING DONT LOVE YOU ANY MORE. AND EVERYTIME I DID GIVE YOU A FUCKING CHANCE YOU BLEW IT BITCHES. I R GOING TO FUCKING STABAX0R YOU AND KILL YOU. I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU. FUCKING DONT DO ANY GOOD TO ME. THANX FOR MAKING ME FEEL BETTER... JUST BUILD MY ANGER IN EVEN MORE. I MISS THE CHANCE OF MEETING NEW PEOPLE... THESE PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO LIVES. I DONT HAVE ONE EITHER SO I MIGHT AS WELL MAKE THE BEST OF IT. STUPID ASS FUCKERS. YOU NEED TO DIE. I HATE BEING AZN. I HATE AZN PARENTS. YOU DUMB ASSES. I HATE YOUR RELATIVES. I HATE YOU ALL. STUPID SHITHEADS SAYING, 'YEAH JOCY YOU STUPID YEAH JOCY YOU CANT DO SHIT, YEAH JOCY YOUR A DISGRACE' WELL FUCKERS FINE BE THAT WAY, YOU'LL BE SORRY WHEN I'M OUTTA HERE. YOU DUMB SHITS. I GAVE YOU A CHANCE, I WANTED TO MEET NEW PEOPLE, I WANT THAT SENCE OF ADVENTURE I DONT WANT TO BE A FUCKING RAT IN A CAGE. HELL YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT I WANT TO KNOW WHAT ELSE THERE IS IN THIS WORLD. BUT NO YOUR FUCKERS. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THAT NEED. OF COURSE NOT YOUR NOT ME. YOU ASSHOLES. !@(*$)!#(*$!@#*)!@(#4
-jocy madly insane and wanting her parents to die for not understand her side of the world.
and to all you fucking carlmont peeps who think they're the shit. you dumb shitheads, your all fucking loosers who dont know shit about the world. your stupid games, you annoy me.
listening to: Fantasy by Ultimate Dub
Friday, February 09, 2001
gaaaaaaaah! i'm at the library, doing stuff, want to eat an apple... but i cant eat in here >.< they so mean! any way, uM. went to the mall and did quicky stuff today, got a few gifts, and a gift for a friend of mine cuz i'm waiting to get picked up to go to a party... over at malibu.. o_O; god i havent been there in so long. any way yeah. so i got some cute stuff... all winne the pooh stuff so its cute in that way. ^_^ any way. so i'll keep this short since i'm in the library and stuff like that. there are people watching behind my shoulders... =X any way. jocy is heading out!
Listening on my headphones: Tell Me Tell Me by S#ARP. =D
Wednesday, February 07, 2001
Now Listening to: Feeling Like a Virgin by Virginelle
GUAR! !@*)($^(*&!@RH)!#&$)*!@)#(*!@()#!!!!!!!
so what do you do with someone who like stabax0rs you?! OMG! theres this once girl at school who was hella nice to me and stuff... and then now she's going around talking shit bout me, and like staying away from me and shit like that. THANKYOU VERY MUCH! what the hell did i do? i can't help it if i fucking take classes with her and shit like that. its not my fault for her following me around, and now i get shit tossed behind my back. uGhR. so now what the fuck do i do? where did it go wrong? ugh. this is what i get for being myself i guess. so lately i've been enlightened to act more of myself, which i've been doing, being a lazy ass cat. doing homework, and for once i'm actually online and i've finished my ap us history homework! =D thats a big wow. but i still have other homework to do =T which sux0rs major. any way. so i r tired. valentines day is comming up! i got myself a valentine, and i'm not tellin yoooou =P`` he's someone special, and someone i luv0rs so much0. yeah. o_O; i r go do more homework i guess. or i go play some more vampire the masquerade comp game. its so silly, that Christof dude is like... "NOOOO I CANT BE A VAMPIRE DURRR" and stuff like that... o_O; funny thing is he does become one! hahaha its so silly. teehee. any way, bouncing out, dont get caught in a wind storm or something. =D toodles.
Now listening to: [Winter Story by Dj Doc... o_O;]
Saturday, February 03, 2001
aw jeeeeez. the past whole week its been soooooo tiring. so many things have happened... and i'm too lazy to post n e thing on it... hahaha. i'm an evil bitch. any way. so today i took my buds Mike and David to MGL. Now they're all hooked onto PPP. its kinda weird. o_O; oh well. tora tora tora kat style! jocy will own that song now. (:< n e way. i think i'm heading off. i'm tired. i feel like being a lazy little black cat. ^_^ nites.
Now Playing: Trip.Machine.Climax.mp3
- posted by LiLUsako @ 2/03/2001 11:42:00 PM
Weeee! Today was a wonderful.... (well... most of it) day... i got decent grades for the semester and already working hard for the next... gaaaah! *gets a headache* so heres what got me the most today:
Teacher: yes! welcome to ap statistics.... you will be doing lots and lots and lots of work!
*Jocy nods and looks at her fat fat fat ap statistics book...*
Teacher: thats right! you have only like 3 months before the ap test! good luck!
*Jocy begins to store caffine mints, pills, and coffee...* @.@;;;
jeez. you all tell me i'm crazy... @.@;;;;;;; so maybe i am? taking so many fucking classes... hopefully no stress? i've got support from everywhere i guess... speaking of homework. =T shucks. i'd better get going then. uRgH!! n E way. jocy go off once more...
Now Playing: Night.Of.Fire.mp3 by Niko edit]
this sux, yes again another post, why cuz i'm at home and my dad is being such a fucking asshole. everyone is... and at the same time i think, is it my fault? so heres what happened.. my dad and grandma hate each other and yet we're still living in the same house. any way on chinese new year since i had to go to school i went down and said happy chinese new year to my grandma w/o my dad... any way, after that she closed the door, and then my dad and mom later asked, "Why didnt you wait for your dad" and i was like... *shrug* and then i said, "It doesnt matter any way, grandma would slam the door in your face and you'd be sobbing any way..." i dunno. i feel like its my fault.
any way, that was 3 days ago, and now i'm stuck at home. So like around 7pm i AOLim my friend and say, "Hey wanna go to svgl? i've been fucking stuck at home and i want a buddy to go to svgl with..." and he's like, "Um sure but i'd need a ride..." so i'm like, "Kaye i'll ask my dad" and all fucking day long my dad had been sleeping, and being a lazy ass pig. so i ask, "Hey dad can i go to svgl tonite? it closes at 12... 12:30... i havent been out of the house all day, yap yap etc" and guess what he says, "No its late, i dont want to go out..." okay fawker... I understand when you dont get enough sleep from work... BUT YOU SELFISH NO GOOD FAWKING PIG!!! since when did it become "I, I, ME?!" what the hell?!?! I'll drive, i just need an adult in the car... and i go, "Well you've been sleeping all day... please?"... Dad: "Durrr durrr... No. leave me the fuck alone.." its like WHAT THE HELL!?!? out of all the days of the weekends that i'm giving... lucky i have no homework this weekend... and i cant even go out, see my friends, and keep my legs from gainning jello... what the hell?! god fucking damn it. everyone at home are becomming assholes.. and yet they question me, "Why are you always ditching us... why are you always going out with your friends..." you know why fawkers itz cuz you turn me away from you. durr. you dumb asses... god. *upset*
Listening To: [Wonderland~UKS.mix~]
I"M FAWKING STUCK AT HOME! what the hell? out of all the weekends to enjoy a weekend... this weeked, where there is lyke NOOOOOOOOO homework at all.. i get stuck at home cuz my dad's a fawking asshole and my bro's sick. Now, what do you get when you have suched a phawked up family like that? Someone who has to put up with all of it. it pisses me off. i'm stuck at home!!! >.< no fair no fair!!!! uGh. next think you know i'll be taking pics of meeee... o_O;;; no that'd be skary. i was so bored today i even put together a lame ass necklace... jeez i'm lame. hRm. my digital camera is out of batteries... i havent used that camera in a while... =T oh well. ARGH! My aol im is being a pain in the buttorz.... uGH. it sux it sux it sux. i'm all alone now... *sigh*. i want to do something and hang out w/ ppl... nooooo i get stuck at hooome! >.<
Now playing: DreamADream.mp3 by Captain Jack...
.....ooh one more time... i'm back with a new rhyme...hey! here we go again... turn it up my friend... nooo we dont stop... we rock the spot... no we dont quit... get ready ohhh this is it.... guar!
ohohohoho.... kinkage. tralala. i went to j-town! I ditched skoo b/c the stupid fawkers @ skoo thought it was koo to have lyke skoo the day after fucking finals... WHAT THE PHUCK?! those ppl are so dumb... of course i didnt go. neither did like all my friends. =T too bad for the skoo. hRm. n e way. uH. i r work on my website n stuff. yeah. i have more ranting. but i'll do it some other time... Go TarePanda!
Now Playing: Budam.mp3 by Baek Ji Young
Go download now!!!
Wellllll. Something beyond my mind? Yeah, probably, most likely, something weird beyond that. HrM. This will probably be just full of ranting, and me me me. o_O; of i feel so selfish ;_; but no matter. UgH. my family is such an ass. Its well chinese new year, yay! *waves little banners...* and well. my family is whack. ugh. i hate them so much. well maybe my home family that i live with is alright. but then again, everyone else is so out of whack its not even funny. sometimes i'm like, "WTF?! what kind of supportive family are you?" they talk shit about everything and of me. *sigh* so depressing. GUAR! MY INTERNET CONNECTION DIED! Be Right back... for more ranting. >.<
